Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Awkward


okay, that awkward moment
when your mother had received a call
from her sister
whom the daughter a.k.a my cousin
already have a boyfriend
and already met my aunt plus
although afraid, my uncle too..
and my mom ask is it serious or whatever
when your boyfriend already meet parents
and i was in a state of not knowing how to explain
when she suddenly said about my boyfriend
and i also suddenly ask
when did i ever had a boyfriend???
okay, more question marks here..
sometime before?
that was boy-friend, no matter when that was
in a context of they are a boy and are my friends..
duh..

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

I.a.m.s.p.i.n.n.i.n.g

it's the magnificent revision week
or as i quote "the torture week"
as during this week
a thirteen week lecture
need to be stuff into the brain in one week
and once moved to another topic
this one topic is already forgotten
and so many things
facts, definition, events, cycle
the enzyme for each step
each process
zzzzzzzzzzzzzz....
with the accidental overslept
the self lazy state
date with the lovely lappy
and ohh, already clash with facebook
i still don't know how i'll survive
to the day the final block exam will finish
and i can say yay it's over
with the feeling of knowing i answered,,,
ok? excellantly? not to good?
what to do time is flying by
everyday asking the same quetion
am i fit to be a medical student
a friend say: God doesn't put you there if you do not belong
how to learn? so many
another friend say: read and understand slowly
me:so stress..
the another friend: take some time to relax, don't be crazy studying all time
me trying to object: but...
both friend: don't worry, you can do it!!
okay, mouth shut..

Saturday, November 26, 2011

A simple wish...

and i remember
all those crazy things you said
you left them riding through my head
but right now i wish you were here
all those crazy things we did
didn't think about it
just went with it
you're always there
you're everywhere
but right now i wish you were here

Avril Lavinge
Wish you were here

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Today is...

it's 22nd November
used to be a day of something
but now it's just a day
that i can't wait to end

wonder what you're doing now?
are you fine and in the best of health?
did you had a nice time today?
how did you celebrate today?

sure, it's your birthday today
and it has already been two years
since i last wish you your birthday
before, i stopped to even care of the day

remember that once during your birthday night?
we had a long chat towards the morning
when we are both supposedly to be in examination period
and that was like the first time we ever had such a long talk















i really thought that was enough
when there's only me and you that time
but i made a mistake somewhere and you did yours
and maybe someday we'll think back of it

many times you said you want to strengthen the tie
and after that many times somehow we get apart
i didn't want to disturb you as you are so very busy forever
but that very kind thought and act made we became apart














you have a new surrounding, new career, new you
i hate it
hate as you become a different person
because i really miss the old you...


but now here i am already nearly forgetting you
will be someday near, the days are flying quickly
and on that day if you ever appear in front of me
you won't find my old self anymore

Saturday, November 19, 2011

He's always there~

when you feel down and really sad
and don't what else to do
you need someone to tell
and give comfort and cheer you up
suddenly all your friends are not around
all have their own plan
everyone is busy
and you feel alone
but there's always someone
who will always be there
never ever leave our side
that will comfort us
there's Allah swt, our God
always there for you
send Quran to comfort and guide
sentence prayer for us to remember Him
and ask something from Him by doa'
so many things He gave
never forgets us
never leaving our sides
so when you feel down again
remember Allah is there with you

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Looking back~

friends are the one closest to us next to our family
and often, they know more about us than family
they are the one who knows of our feelings and secrets
then we grow up and each have their own future
it's unavoidable
we can't force the other one to do everything the same as us
so somewhere along the path we choose a different path
some can still sent a letter or give a call to the one on a different path
some just forgets and meet others in the new path
and some, just maybe, their path meets again
reunion might be full of happiness of able to meet again
or simply the recognition of having know each other
old friendship may rekindle back
or it might just have been a close book
too often we lose our friends through separation
each with a different path and future
of different profession and specialty
and in the midst of little time
we tend to forget to keep in touch
and become apart more and more in the days that come
some lost their friends through maturity
people grow up and become independent
they no longer need the one who support them along their way
once they have gain the courage and confident
the one who have been loyal to their side 
who they needed all the support to stay on the road
are left aside on the roadside
as if a child who leave their mother
and how a mother are always afraid of her baby growing up
becoming independent and leave them
some lose through conflicts
of misunderstanding and jealousy
of things often too stupid to be argued
it is true
friends just come and go
new relationship can always be formed
but those that start from our early life
are the most precious and memorable
most lovely and most adorably
and to lose such relationship is just
something we might regret in our later days
as we realize they are the true friends
so think back of that friend you have already forgotten when their birthday are
the friend that you have no idea what they are doing now
or the one you use to refer to for all problems
maybe they might give you a boost of happiness
when you most need it now

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Love yourself first!!!



sometimes, we never realize that we have to see in ourselves first and understand what we really feels. unless we care about ourselves, no one else will. so love yourselves first, be happy of yourselves, and cherish yourselves, before you start to search for someone else to worry about..

Saturday, November 5, 2011

A True Friend

a friend that is along your side no matter what
who will laugh when you tell this funny joke you can't seem to forget
who will listen when you need to talk or you will end up in the asylum
who will tease when special something happen and you are over the moon
who will comfort when you have butterflies in your stomach
who will worry when your brain is worrying and spinning
who will cry together when the crystal drops start falling out of your eyes
who will always be there no matter what and no matter where
and even if for some time you are apart
when you meet again the same remains
memories will still be carved in your heart
and happenings are to be plan in the future
for all of this, a true friend is really the most precious treasure in the world

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Missing a Friend

which is more preferable
to stay as friends forever
or change the relationship into lovers
when i said i want to stay as your friend
it means i really want to be your friend
but i do not like it when you start to go into that way..
again and again and again
i do not want to lose you as a friend
nor do i want to have you as that special someone
and only when you can accept me as your friend
then only can i feel that same feeling again talking to you
that feeling when i can say anything
and act as myself
plus that simple feeling
that i have my friend back (",)